Don't complain for 24 hours
How grateful am I for this assignment?? It's funny how you have an idea of who and what you are only to find out that what you project to the world is different. I consider myself a laid-back. happy-go-lucky sort of person but from my notebook I seem like a Debbie Downer. From 8:00am until 3:00pm I made 31 tallies for negative things I had said or thought. Now this is skewed a bit because I am with my family and we tend to nudge each other on in escalating negativity (no bueno) but overall still not a good look. Most things I complained about were incidental and didn't even affect me like the bad weather in New York when I'm all the way in Texas. There was an instance where I mentally turned my nose up at a woman's hair style and had to check myself. In general I need to be more gentle when dealing with everyone even if they will never know my thoughts. These thoughts only serve to poision me and all stem from a deep rooted limiting belief I uncovered-"I'm (or anything I do/say) not good enough". There was a quote I read once that said every person you meet is going through some kind of battle. This quote is what I repeated to myself when I found my mind wandering into negative land.
So how do I fix this? Not sure. I've decided to continue to identify the negative beliefs about myself and continue this assignment throughout the year to keep my true self in my face.