State of the Union:
Today's exercise was revealing to say the least. The objective was to take stock of my life in seven key areas by stating 1. I love ____ about this part of my life and 2. I hate _____ about this part of my life:
General consensus: Where/When did I turn left? At first glance I figured I had these seven areas in tight order..NOT. Ok, I figured I could use some work but actually writing in detail what I love and hate was eye opening. Never before had I sat down and taken stock of where I am versus where I want to be. In some areas of my life I was hard-pressed to find anything I really loved but could list a ton of things I hated. Actually lately what bothers me more than anything is my complacency. About three years ago, (what felt like) my entire life came crashing down around me and since then I haven't been able to quite get the pieces back together again. A "once bitten twice shy" sort of deal. Well, in all honestly things were never in place anyway because my life was constructed solely for the purpose and approval of others, namely my parents. My life went from neatly laid out plans-middle school, high school, college, career, marriage, kids-to a sort of stationary nomadic existence. Moving from one idea to the next hoping to find "me" in one of them. Somehow I've seemed to latch on to a few things I feel really define me but with no rhyme or reason. I am thankful for this exercise. I can't say I would have ever truly grasped the state of my life without it.Mostly I feel empowered in a way I've never been before.